Poison

As much as we try to let go of past mistakes as well as the ones of others, we fail. Those hurtful memories influence the person that we know ourselves to be. It is with that knowledge that we must choose. Will we use it as a crutch to punish all others that cross our paths in the future? Will we allow it to be the poison that in the end destroys us? We should know better. What we should do is accept that what’s done is done and take the risk of hurt once again. No one wants to suffer a pain that they’ve felt before but life is nothing if not a challenge. Each morning that we wake up is a gift. We have another day to impact the world. Yes we can be hurt again and again, but don’t let the unknown be a killing blow. Take a deep breath and accept that we don’t know what the future holds for us. If you find yourself harmed by those you trusted, shake it off and know better than to let them do it again. But don’t punish people for something that they didn’t and may never do to you.

“LOVE – For better or worse I still will choose you first” – Musiq Soulchild

I haven’t fully considered how important love is until now. It’s something that we should be familiar with from an early age. Being loved as a child was just a given and therefore I can’t say I was as appreciative of it as I am now. So many people walk around with hate instead of love in their hearts and it saddens me. I learned through my daughter how beautiful love is. It’s pure, warm and stronger than the earth. It’s so wonderful it can almost hurt. I’ve learned a special type of love through a little boy whom will hopefully one day be my step son. I met him when he was two and have never been under any obligation to love him. Yet in just under a year I’ve learned to love him as my own. I worry about him in the same ways I worry about my daughter, all without having the extra stretch marks.

Let’s not forget the variation of love for your partner in life. I met my counter-part under funny circumstances. I didn’t expect to fall madly in love because at that point in my life I was skeptical of the romance business. Who really ever finds the love of their life? However after our first meeting something just felt right. It was almost as if it was my turn to star in one of those love stories full of gushy love stuff. I’ve found what it feels like to be appreciated. To look him in the eye with love and see it reflected right back. I wake up everyday happier than the one before because he loves me. With a wonderful family, a gorgeous set of amazing kids, and a handsome man in my life, I have all that I need. With their love I can survive anything that life throws at me. Money or love? I choose love. Just don’t make me choose.


BTW, I said love 16 times if you were wondering.